Friday, October 29, 2010

I Miss My Mami

While I was Blog Hopping, I came across a blog post by My Life on Haber Way She wrote about how she misses her father. I can relate to that. I lost my mother when I was 10 years old and her sudden death still impacts me today. I don't think you ever get over such a loss. Every now and then the death of my mother smacks me in the face. We missed out on so many things together, graduating high school and college, getting married, being pregnant and now my bundles of joy Sasa and Mimi. It hurts every time. Although I have an amazing family who supports and loves me, I missed out on going to my mom while I was pregnant and venting to her, asking her what it was like when she was pregnant with me. I miss my mother so much and the memories I have of her are few in number, but strong. I love my mother and sometimes I can't believe she's gone. I'm saddened by the fact that she didn't see me grow up, fall in love, get married, and have children, her grand-children. There are so many times I wished she were here. I remember wanting that when I was pregnant with the girls as my pregnancy was no walk in the park. I can't turn back time and what is done, is done. My mother isn't here and my girls will never meet her, but they will know of her. They will know how much she loved me and cared for me. They will know about that time she took my sister and I to the Oval Park Clean Up and that time she hosted an entire block party to raise money for security camera's in our building on Dekalb Ave.. They will know about the time she gave me pow-pow for smacking my lips and the time she danced with me because she didn't have to cook that night. My mom was the most amazing woman I know and her life ended too soon at 37. My girls will know her and they will love her as I do. I love you Mami...


  1. I still have my mami and I miss her throughout the day, but I know it is nothing like what you must feel. Thanks for the follow and I am definitely following back, I have twin sisters that I am raising now her were preemies. They never stop being preemies, I know that for sure.


  2. I'm sorry you're missing your mom so much. I know it must be hard to have your littles without her.

    Stopping by from the blog hop! Now following along! Hope you have a great Saturday!

  3. The best thing that you can do is tell them all your mom, and show them pictures and anything else you can. And remember, she may not be with you in the flesh, but she is watching over you, and I'm positive that she is an angel for your girls. I know that doesn't make it any better or easier, but it may bring you comfort. I know that(for me anyways) it is a very comforting thing to think that my dad watches over me and my children....
    I will be posting a link to this post on my page as well.

    My Life on Haber Way

  4. I am so terribly sorry. My mother is my best friend and I can't imagine having to grow up without her.

    My children thankfully will have a grandmother, however they did lose both of their grandfathers at young ages and it saddens me they will never know the joy of playing with them both.


  5. I'm sorry.
    I don't know what to say.

    I'm returning the follow.

  6. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I can relate. My mom died only weeks before I became pregnant with my first daughter and she has never met my children. It is so hard.
    I do hope you get to be home by Thanksgiving! But regardless, you have a lot to be thankful for! Following you back!

  7. Aww I am so sorry you lost your mom at such a young age. I feel your pain. I lost my mom about two years ago now. To be honest, I'm not sure when. Could have been three. I only don't know because I try not to think about it. I let the time go by and fog the memories of her funeral. I thought I was too young and I was. I'm only 30, I was in my 20s when she died. But ten? How deeply sad you must have been. And I know it still stings today. But at least you have little pieces of her in your children. I'm sure she would be so proud of you. She sounds like she was an amazing woman. Let her live on in your memories ... and your blog posts about her! Thank you for sharing. And for following my blog. I'm following you back :) Hope you will come back and visit soon.