I thought about this today and have been thinking about this for the last couple of weeks. Sasa is still in the NICU. Since we are FL residents with FL Medicaid and I gave birth in NY, we are having problems with getting an O2 monitor for us to go home. I have no idea how long it's going to take to get the monitor, but it better be before I have to buy another tube of toothpaste! I guess I'm trying to give myself a goal to get to: "We will be home before the toothpaste is finished". Do I think it will happen? Well, considering this is the third time I've said this, no. I'm struggling to get though it here. I'm in such a unique situation that I don't think anyone can relate. Yes, there are many preemie parents out there, but any who aren't even in a state bordering their home state? I don't think so. There were so many "I want to be home before..." dates including, ...by the end of September, ...before their due date, ...sometime mid-October, ...before Halloween, and our new one ...before Thanksgiving. If I'm not home before Thanksgiving, I don't know what I'm going to do.
UPDATE 11/23/2010
We made it home on 11/9/2010. I didn't have to buy toothpaste and we will be celebrating Thanksgiving with our family in FL. God is so good!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
I Miss My Mami
While I was Blog Hopping, I came across a blog post by My Life on Haber Way She wrote about how she misses her father. I can relate to that. I lost my mother when I was 10 years old and her sudden death still impacts me today. I don't think you ever get over such a loss. Every now and then the death of my mother smacks me in the face. We missed out on so many things together, graduating high school and college, getting married, being pregnant and now my bundles of joy Sasa and Mimi. It hurts every time. Although I have an amazing family who supports and loves me, I missed out on going to my mom while I was pregnant and venting to her, asking her what it was like when she was pregnant with me. I miss my mother so much and the memories I have of her are few in number, but strong. I love my mother and sometimes I can't believe she's gone. I'm saddened by the fact that she didn't see me grow up, fall in love, get married, and have children, her grand-children. There are so many times I wished she were here. I remember wanting that when I was pregnant with the girls as my pregnancy was no walk in the park. I can't turn back time and what is done, is done. My mother isn't here and my girls will never meet her, but they will know of her. They will know how much she loved me and cared for me. They will know about that time she took my sister and I to the Oval Park Clean Up and that time she hosted an entire block party to raise money for security camera's in our building on Dekalb Ave.. They will know about the time she gave me pow-pow for smacking my lips and the time she danced with me because she didn't have to cook that night. My mom was the most amazing woman I know and her life ended too soon at 37. My girls will know her and they will love her as I do. I love you Mami...
Big and Scary Haunted Blog Hop!
Join us for a
BIG and SCARY HAUNTED BLOG HOP.....if you DARE!
Grab the Button!
Hosted by:
Just Married with Coupon
Shibley Smiles
Family Friendly Frugality
The Chickenista
Mother of Pearl It Is
It's My Life
To Participate:
-Creep to each of your host's haunted blogs & follow them.
-Leave a creepy comment & we will follow you back.
-Crawl to as many blogs as you like, follow & comment
-Follow back anyone that follows you!
-Run if you see dark shadows lurking about
BIG and SCARY HAUNTED BLOG HOP.....if you DARE!
Grab the Button!
Hosted by:
Just Married with Coupon
Shibley Smiles
Family Friendly Frugality
The Chickenista
Mother of Pearl It Is
It's My Life
To Participate:
-Creep to each of your host's haunted blogs & follow them.
-Leave a creepy comment & we will follow you back.
-Crawl to as many blogs as you like, follow & comment
-Follow back anyone that follows you!
-Run if you see dark shadows lurking about
Busy Blogger Weekend Blog Hop!!
Weekend blog hop button
Here are the details for the Busy Bloggers Weekend Blog Hop
Welcome to Busy Blogger Weekend Blog hop! A cool new blog hop that is open to everyone!!! It will run the last weekend of every month (Friday thru Sunday).
This blog hop is all about having fun, meeting new bloggers, and building new readership. So, please make sure you follow the rules. It is important to make a post on your blog with the blog hop button to make new potential readers comfortable and to make it easy for them to find the correct place to respond!
Blog Hop Rules
1. Please follow Shhhhh! Just between u&me and Non typical mom and we WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK!
2. Post the Busy Blogger Weekend Blog Hop button on your site so new followers will know where to leave a comment when they stop by your page.
3. Post the direct link to that blog post in the linky forms below, where the blog hop button can be found.
4. Leave a comment on the blogs that you choose to follow letting them know your are following them.
5. Follow back anyone that follows you and take the time to go to their page and follow them back.
Here are the details for the Busy Bloggers Weekend Blog Hop
Welcome to Busy Blogger Weekend Blog hop! A cool new blog hop that is open to everyone!!! It will run the last weekend of every month (Friday thru Sunday).
This blog hop is all about having fun, meeting new bloggers, and building new readership. So, please make sure you follow the rules. It is important to make a post on your blog with the blog hop button to make new potential readers comfortable and to make it easy for them to find the correct place to respond!
Blog Hop Rules
1. Please follow Shhhhh! Just between u&me and Non typical mom and we WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK!
2. Post the Busy Blogger Weekend Blog Hop button on your site so new followers will know where to leave a comment when they stop by your page.
3. Post the direct link to that blog post in the linky forms below, where the blog hop button can be found.
4. Leave a comment on the blogs that you choose to follow letting them know your are following them.
5. Follow back anyone that follows you and take the time to go to their page and follow them back.
Reflecting On My Journey
I wrote a post a couple of days ago about Sasa and her journey in the NICU. Since then I can't stop thinking about how far both of my girls have come. I never thought in a million years I'd be pregnant with twins and they would be born three months early while on vacation in NY. What are the chances of that happening?!?! I pray that I never forget my experiences this summer. As terrible and traumatic as they have been, I have been shown God's awesome power and unconditional (agape) love for His creation. Some may say "Look at what God has done to you and your girls. How can He let that happen?" God has made a true believer out of me and I pray that others can find it in their hearts to find answers for themselves. My girls are alive, healthy and growing stronger everyday. I've said it before, nobody can look at my girls and say that there is no God.
In this blog I try to be as real and true as possible. I want my readers to really grasp the emotion and drama of the events that have taken place this summer, but sometimes there aren't words to explain it. When I saw my fragile little girls, the pain and guilt that overcame me was unbearable. I was numb and felt horrible. I was on the verge of tears every single time I saw them. I would often burst into flat out crying sessions before I saw them, after I saw them, at home thinking of them, but never in front of the girls or any nurses. I could cry now just thinking about it. I don't wish these horrors on anyone.
What pulled me though it all was God. I looked to him every time and every time He picked me up. Again and again without fail my Savior stepped in and gave me hope and comforted me. And look now, Mimi is home and thriving and Sasa will be home soon, just waiting on her O2 monitor. You never know what you can handle until you've been brought through it. When you reflect on it you realize you've become a new person, a very different person. I thought I couldn't go through anything worse than losing my mother at age ten and growing up without her. What have I learned while walking through this wilderness? I know that the Lord is on my side and I will trust His path for my life. Thank you Jesus for the health you have restored in myself and my children! Amen!
In this blog I try to be as real and true as possible. I want my readers to really grasp the emotion and drama of the events that have taken place this summer, but sometimes there aren't words to explain it. When I saw my fragile little girls, the pain and guilt that overcame me was unbearable. I was numb and felt horrible. I was on the verge of tears every single time I saw them. I would often burst into flat out crying sessions before I saw them, after I saw them, at home thinking of them, but never in front of the girls or any nurses. I could cry now just thinking about it. I don't wish these horrors on anyone.
What pulled me though it all was God. I looked to him every time and every time He picked me up. Again and again without fail my Savior stepped in and gave me hope and comforted me. And look now, Mimi is home and thriving and Sasa will be home soon, just waiting on her O2 monitor. You never know what you can handle until you've been brought through it. When you reflect on it you realize you've become a new person, a very different person. I thought I couldn't go through anything worse than losing my mother at age ten and growing up without her. What have I learned while walking through this wilderness? I know that the Lord is on my side and I will trust His path for my life. Thank you Jesus for the health you have restored in myself and my children! Amen!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Twitter Hop Thursday 10/28/2010
Welcome to Twitter Hop Thursday, hosted by Simply Stacie, The King’s Court IV, Little Yaya’s, and Review Retreat!
Would you like more Twitter followers and be introduced to more neat blogs and businesses out there? Come and join us!!
1. Add your Twitter to the MckLinky (you only have to add it to one and it will appear on all).
2. Click on the Twitter for the four hostesses and follow each of them on Twitter. We will follow you back.
3. Follow as many people on Twitter as you like, but make sure to leave comments with links so they’ll know where to follow you!
Spread the word and add this MckLinky to your blog! Write your own post or copy and paste this one. Below the MckLinky box, you’ll see “Want to be a part of this Blog Hop? Click here for instructions and code”. Have fun Twitter-Hopping along!
We have selected a Twitterer of the Week from last week’s entries and the lucky winner is Minding Spot! They will be in the #5 spot! We will choose next week’s winner from everyone who participated today.
Please only add your Twitter url. All other entries will be deleted. Thank you!!!
Would you like more Twitter followers and be introduced to more neat blogs and businesses out there? Come and join us!!
1. Add your Twitter to the MckLinky (you only have to add it to one and it will appear on all).
2. Click on the Twitter for the four hostesses and follow each of them on Twitter. We will follow you back.
3. Follow as many people on Twitter as you like, but make sure to leave comments with links so they’ll know where to follow you!
Spread the word and add this MckLinky to your blog! Write your own post or copy and paste this one. Below the MckLinky box, you’ll see “Want to be a part of this Blog Hop? Click here for instructions and code”. Have fun Twitter-Hopping along!
We have selected a Twitterer of the Week from last week’s entries and the lucky winner is Minding Spot! They will be in the #5 spot! We will choose next week’s winner from everyone who participated today.
Please only add your Twitter url. All other entries will be deleted. Thank you!!!
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